Its been so long since i last logged onto this account, but i've been reading a lot of peoples comments whilst i've been offline, but not had it in me to post anything... so, time to fill you all in on whats happened, my last post was in December 2013, so I'll start from January last year... (fasten your seatbelts folks we're in for a bumpy ride!)
January 2014, I dropped out of University, at the time I had no idea why but we'll come to that soon, I went onto job seekers allowance (basically, for those that don't know, in england we get paid a megre sum of money whilst unemployed, to pay for food ect.) and eventually managed to find myself a new job as a chef. I stuck this out from march to June/July all the whilst I knew something was going wrong in my brain, I was getting increasingly paranoid, delusional, and at my worst i even convinced myself I was a sociopath (I even started a new blog elsewhere describing my actions as said sociopath, turns out i'm not) The high stress environment of single-handedly running a kitchen (and for minimum wage... grr) as well as being convinced all my friends actually hated me, in the end finally pushed me over the edge, I was going to kill myself, was fully prepared to do the act when a tiny little voice in my head decided that was the time to speak up and say "this isn't you, you need help, get yourself to A&E" so off I went, arrived in A&E at about midnight.... and just clammed up, that stubborn side of me that has always refused to seek help kicked in once again, thankfully the receptionist realized that something was seriously wrong and I was admitted.
OH MY GOD, talking, talking made everything better, I'm a massive fan of bottling things up because deep down I don't trust anyone, I sat with the crisis team in a room for a good three or four hours just talking, rambling, saying everything that I'd been bottling up for years (since my dad died when I was a kid) things that seemed pointless, things about life, things about the universe, about how nothings fair.
And good on them they sat there and listened, the spoke when needed and even argued against me instead of just agreeing with everything I said, after the longest, and shortest conversation of my life, it was decided I was safe to go home as long as I wouldn't be left alone for long periods.
So the very next day I rang work and explained I couldn't be coming in and why, then spent the day in the sun at the park with my friends and went into work to fully explain in person what was going on and quit, end of story, no more chefing for me (silly career choice really, I've no sense of smell xD can't taste the food I cook)
Bumbed about in carlisle for a month after that and then moved back home, where I got another job working in a sandwich shop, but again I could feel my mental state slipping, crap, maybe work just isn't for me, maybe I should join a monastery...
Then I started Counseling, once a week on a Monday I'd meet up with Gareth my Councillor in Colne and we'd discuss what happened during the week, and how I reacted, and how to avoid said reaction, this went of for about 5 or 6 weeks, then we eventually started delving into my actual subconscious (such a cool experience for an educated person such as myself!) and I was eventually diagnosed with PTSD
Whilst I was in counseling I was helping my uncle with what was his business, a raw feeding company for dogs, however i started changing it to try and make it legitimate (he's extraordinarily dodgy my uncle, wouldn't trust him as far as I can spit kinda guy) and he didn't like it, a few things cropped up and eventually i was given an ultimatum "Walk away, or find someone to do it with you" by this time I'd already started planning on leaving England (again, we'll get to that :P ) and a startup business of my own would have been perfect, I could take funds out as a wage and when the time came, close down shop and declare the business in liquidation, pay what little taxes i'd need to so as not be breaking any laws and disappear, now onto my big journey, in January this year i threw out all my things, packed what i needed for life into a backpack and went what was supposed to be travelling, I wrote a log of my journey so i'll put that in the next update!
Hope thats got your appetites back for my crazy intense life!
Namaste
Liam
OUT!
Showing posts with label england. Show all posts
Showing posts with label england. Show all posts
Monday, 13 April 2015
Saturday, 27 October 2012
The TRUTH behind banks and money
I spend so much time talking about the banks, yet never really look at the corruption of what people THINK the banks are.
The local branches of banks (barclays, HSBC, Santander etc.) are the people that directly control our money, they see how much we earn, how much we spend, where we spend it, what we spend it on, anyone working at a local branch has access to these details (they have to be, to do there job) and even people over the phone can see your spending habits, hence when you ring up with a blocked card, they ask you questions about your spending.
But, for every pound you have in the bank, this is used as insurance to get loans ten times greater, so 1 pound is worth 10 pounds to the bank, not that special, until you get to big numbers:
If you have 10,000 pounds in your savings, this is worth 100,000 to the banks, they can loan 100,000 out to a bigger company, and when this gets paid back, and the company gets more money, (say, 100,000) this is worth ten times to the bank (so a company with a bottom line of 100,000 each year is worth a whopping 1,000,000 to the banks, this can be lended on and the cycle continues)
HOWEVER, this is not real money, nothing you can touch, its on a screen as a number, so it literally is worthless to us, yet the banks (who control these screens) each digit is worth 10 digits, but in actual paper money, there is not this much money in the world.
If every single person walked into branch and wanted to empty their bank accounts, there wouldn't be enough cash, which is why there is a limit to how much you can withdraw from the bank without notice, you have to ring them and inform them you will be coming to withdraw x number of thousands and they either order the cash in from bigger branches, or request a loan of the government that ask to get more printed by the bank of England (however, the bank of england loans this money to the government at an interest rate, it is then the governments responsibility to pay this debt, but how do they do that? by requesting more money, it is a debt we will never overcome)
so if everyone requested to empty all there savings on the same day, how much paper money would have to be in the world?
lets do the math:
say if (in England) there are 6,000,000 people living with 10,000 in savings in their accounts
that 10,000 is worth 100,000 per person to the banks
so there would have to be 60,000,000,000 (sixty billion) in cash in england at that day, in all the banks, assuming this would be paid in the majority in 50 pound notes there would have to be 1,200,000,000 (one billion two hundred million) notes in circulation. (when realistically the Bank of England say there is only 40 billions worth of all notes in circulation today, there would be 20,000,000,000 pounds missing that would need re printing, quick time )
however, if 6 million people took 10,000 out of there accounts on the same day, the government would lose access to 600,000,000,000 (six hundred billion) in one day, they would be crippled, and the value of the GBP would drop to be less than that of the Japanese yen!
how good does your money seem now?
Liam
OUT!
The local branches of banks (barclays, HSBC, Santander etc.) are the people that directly control our money, they see how much we earn, how much we spend, where we spend it, what we spend it on, anyone working at a local branch has access to these details (they have to be, to do there job) and even people over the phone can see your spending habits, hence when you ring up with a blocked card, they ask you questions about your spending.
But, for every pound you have in the bank, this is used as insurance to get loans ten times greater, so 1 pound is worth 10 pounds to the bank, not that special, until you get to big numbers:
If you have 10,000 pounds in your savings, this is worth 100,000 to the banks, they can loan 100,000 out to a bigger company, and when this gets paid back, and the company gets more money, (say, 100,000) this is worth ten times to the bank (so a company with a bottom line of 100,000 each year is worth a whopping 1,000,000 to the banks, this can be lended on and the cycle continues)
HOWEVER, this is not real money, nothing you can touch, its on a screen as a number, so it literally is worthless to us, yet the banks (who control these screens) each digit is worth 10 digits, but in actual paper money, there is not this much money in the world.
If every single person walked into branch and wanted to empty their bank accounts, there wouldn't be enough cash, which is why there is a limit to how much you can withdraw from the bank without notice, you have to ring them and inform them you will be coming to withdraw x number of thousands and they either order the cash in from bigger branches, or request a loan of the government that ask to get more printed by the bank of England (however, the bank of england loans this money to the government at an interest rate, it is then the governments responsibility to pay this debt, but how do they do that? by requesting more money, it is a debt we will never overcome)
so if everyone requested to empty all there savings on the same day, how much paper money would have to be in the world?
lets do the math:
say if (in England) there are 6,000,000 people living with 10,000 in savings in their accounts
that 10,000 is worth 100,000 per person to the banks
so there would have to be 60,000,000,000 (sixty billion) in cash in england at that day, in all the banks, assuming this would be paid in the majority in 50 pound notes there would have to be 1,200,000,000 (one billion two hundred million) notes in circulation. (when realistically the Bank of England say there is only 40 billions worth of all notes in circulation today, there would be 20,000,000,000 pounds missing that would need re printing, quick time )
however, if 6 million people took 10,000 out of there accounts on the same day, the government would lose access to 600,000,000,000 (six hundred billion) in one day, they would be crippled, and the value of the GBP would drop to be less than that of the Japanese yen!
how good does your money seem now?
Liam
OUT!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)