Beginning to regret telling people about this blog

Because I can't be honest on it just yet, I can't really fully say how I feel because people I know will read it.

And for all the haters that keep emailing me saying you don't like what I post, fuck off and stop reading then :P

In lighter news, I had an awesome lasagne today :)

Liam

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(Oh, and when I get my flat, I'mma cook some octupi :P )
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Blogging on the move

Hey guys :)

As mentioned earlier I'm now homeless (well, I'm crashing on my grandmas bathroom floor, which aint ideal but it'll do 'till I find a place of my own)

BUT I do have some good news for once :P I've got a viewing of a flat in nelson, its just a 2 roomed studio flat (I.e it has a shower room with toilet, and a big (ish) room with a kitchen area and room for a bed and stuff)

Again, its not the ritz but its a roof, and it has a kitchen, and it'll actually be my own home. Meaning there's no one to tell me when to get up, I can have people round without needing permission off my mother, and I'm not in anyones way and it gives me somewhere to be alone and just THINK (which is something I've never had before, because at mums house, people would just walk into my room without knocking and take my stuff without asking)

Plus, it'll finally give me the independence I've been STRIVING for that'll prepare me for life in the real world, because I'm fed up of people giving me agro and telling me I'm "still a child" well show me how many children will be able to fend for themselves in the real world.

I'm actually beyond caring what people think now, some people seem not to give a shit, and its these people I won't really trust anymore :) because they don't deserve the trust, but there's a few that have sympathised with me, and gave me the support I needed yesterday :) they know who they are, and I thank them :)


I'm just about done, typing on my phone wears my thumbs out xD so I'll go :) I'll keep you updated with what goes on in life and the flat situ as and when I get a second or 2 :)

LIAM


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at times of need you find out who your real friends are :)

okay, i mentioned earlier that i've been kicked out from home.

of the 6 people (that aren't family) that know, 5 of them said they hope i sort it/ find a place soon, 1 just asked me if i could bring a dive computer to the shop... no guesses which one that was?

so right now, i'm looking for a flat that i can rent for the 2 months 'till i go off to university, and its not fucking easy, and its not gonna be cheap, but unfortunately i have no home to go to anymore, so i need to find a job that'll take me on for less than 2 months, and a flat that'll take an eighteen year old with no references, and sort out electricity and stuff... bad timez man :(

anyway, i'm going to bed (i'm staying at my grandmas till i find somewhere

LIAM

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Update :(

get guys, i've been kicked out :( so i'm looking for a flat

will give a proper update later, but i'm not sure if i'll have the internet for long :(

hello guys :D

-deleted post, i'll explain later-

just been thinking

about my ex, (the big ex, not one of the others that have come and go in the past few months)

must be a kinda sad existence, she doesn't realllyy have any people she just "hangs out with" like most people, they're all through diving/where she works/mma, and its normally things like that that brings her  together with people... sure she might sometimes get some free time with a few, but not as much as most :(

i actually feel sorry for her =/ and i know i shouldn't because of all the crap she put me through, and all the mental torture she keeps subjecting me too, but at least i've come out the other side with a load of new friends, and so many of the old ones (despite her best efforts) but i do, i won't divulge on here exactly why i feel sorry for her, but if you know me well enough (i.e if your name is sophie, ellie or sarah ;) ) you'll understand exactly what i'm getting at :) its a shame she's let some people drivea wedge between us, but at the end of the day, i lose nothing if i lose her, other than the brief spells of "friendship" that i get from her (which i treasure no end... but they are so few and far between) but then the random rants she goes off on at me and openly slagging me off, just puts my back up against her (and lets be honest, she's my ex, so i'm more than entitled to hate every fiber in her body LOL )

i very much doubt she'll ever read this -shrugs- but getting this shit out is what stops be falling into insanity :) plus, its mostly strangers that read this blog, so i dunno, one day family will read it, but oh well, don't really give a shit, because recently, having family hasn't really helped me compaired to having the friends that i have (Seems to be that lately most of my family will only help if it suits them, whereas my friends will do their very best at all times to help, kinda a role reversal there :P but i do consider my friends to be closer than family anyway -shrugs-)

wow, 2 longs posts in one day, and theres sooo much left i want to write to y'all about, but it'll have to wait i guess :)


Liam

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fed to the back teeth with jumped up junkies :)

a certain someone in my life decides to get high and give me abuse for no apparent reason, this would be fine, except they can't see that i don't give a shit :)

but anyway, sorry its been so long since my last update, i've just not done an awful lot untill the past week :D

this past weekend i assisted on my first ever openwater at capernwray dive centre, they both did awesome and i'd like to take the opportunity to thank them for making my life easy, and i look forward to diving with them today :D

and yesterday i went to blackpool with sarah, just because we could (i always love how me and her just plan things the day before then just go xD its kinda awesome, but then again, we are that awesome) it was an odd kinda day, it was warm, but muggy, meaning i wasn't sure if i should wear a hoody or not, so i did, and profuse sweating occurred (DOH ) but its all good, maybe the summer wont last long :( (i hate summer, as a child i used to be ginger and that means heat reeeaallllyyy affects me, and it always knocks me for 6 when its summer time (ssoooo glad that we don't do any exams over summer.... i think it'd kill me and i'd fail)

right now i'm waiting for my lift to the dive shop so i can go diving with the afore mentioned students on their first ever pleasure dive :D so that should be fun i think :)

but on the news they're doing at story on the fact that at the minute, ripping songs from a CD to put onto your iPod/mp3 player, is illegal, this is the first i've heard of this, and it means i've broken the law many many times XD LOCK ME UP THEN :P but its okay, they're legalising it today (which i think is stupid, because it means a few friends just need to chip in to by one CD and share it between them :/ i think the law needs to be more detailed than what they're planning, otherwise the artists will lose money :( and we don't want that =/


long post, lots of updates, so i'mma go:)

Liam


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